Yo Madre!
What’s up? I’ve been thinking about you and want to let you know I am okay.
I’ve been here in heaven 4 ½ years now. This is your 5th Mother’s Day without me and 31st without Courtney, my oldest sister. We get to see each other every day! I also see Grandma and Grandpa, Aunt Penny, Kacey, and some of my other friends. I’ve made some new friends too!
Everyone is nice and I mean genuinely nice. They treat me with respect and care about me. The love I feel is immense and I get to give out big hugs – the kind that you loved getting from me – the big bear hugs that I lift people off their feet and spin them around!
It is pretty here. Everything is clean, bright and full of color. I stop and smell your favorite flowers, Iris’s everyday – the deep purple ones. Their fragrance reminds me so much of you. I think of you every day, and I miss you. I don’t know who misses who more; you missing me or me missing you.
I watch you from above and see how you shed tears, like now, as you are reading this Mother’s Day card. I wish I could swoop down from the heavens and give you one of my signature bear hugs.
Just a few days ago you visited my tree at the skate park. Brittany and her kids stop by frequently and keep it decorated with tie-dye ribbons. I love having everyone visit and think it’s great that my tree is getting bigger, taller and will shade the skate park. I often stick around and watch the kids ride. There seems to be more scooters than skate boarders. I bet I would be as good at scootering as boarding. I’ve seen you linger and lovingly touch the tree and talk to me. I hear every word you say and watch the tears roll down your cheeks. I am so, so sorry.
I know you aren’t sad all the time and it is getting better. Hold onto the thought that we will be reunited again. Don’t rush it though. You have more on earth to do. Heaven will wait for you and so will I.
I want to tell you how much I love you. You are my mother and always will be. You have four children, Courtney, Brittany, Hannah and I. Be proud of it!
Do your best to have a Happy Mother’s Day. Tell Brittany and Mickey Happy Mother’s Day and hug each other tight!
I love you to the stars and back,
Con-man 😊
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